Making friends is not the easiest task for me. I find it difficult. I'm aware of it. That's why I tried to be more extroverted, practiced myself in small talks to people, forced myself to do things I thought I couldn't.
Instead of feeling better, I feel frustrated. I was like, "Why is it so easy for others and hard for me? Making friends is supposed to be a basic skill, and I can't even do it?". I felt I failed at being human because I can't connect to the surroundings.